October 4
Samantha Dorr Samantha Dorr

October 4

I am whole, and yet /  A part of me circulates out there with / Arms, legs, and a brain. 

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September 28
Samantha Dorr Samantha Dorr

September 28

Once I described myself as “obnoxiously optimistic” in a job interview. (I wasn’t hired.) 

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September 27
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September 27

Her gift was the nicest thing she had ever given to me; the tenderness in that moment ached like a fresh bruise, and I chose to look away.

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July 21
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July 21

By Christmas, a new child was living in my bedroom and my stuff was sitting in a storage unit. I was scattered. 

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May 18
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May 18

Ambivalence and contradiction surround me. I am full of joy yet incredibly sad. I know I made the right choice but question it every day. I am taking care of my Dad but never laying hands on him.  

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March 24
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March 24

To have wondered about this information my whole life, and then to find it so easily, laid out right before me without even trying, was almost surreal.

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February 10
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February 10

For the sixth time, we’re replaying the conversation about his dementia diagnosis. For the sixth time, it surprises and saddens him to learn he’s not, in fact, a survivor but a fragile old man. 

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February 3
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February 3

I felt connected to Nanoo in that moment; we couldn’t bring ourselves to step out of the fire when we stood melting, consumed.

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February 2
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February 2

I locked away my anger, sadness, and confusion – a naughty trio, imprisoned just under the surface of my chest like some twisted Superman badge.

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April 9
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April 9

I have her plates, her college pennant, her recipe book, her weird clock, and her watch. I have her picture on my mantle, but I do not have her. 

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